I am in Love with you, it’s me who is in love with you not you,I am in love with you.Not in a way I wanted to but yeah the way I am fond toHey I am in love with you,not treating you like I wanted to but just being the one that thought of toyeah I am in love with you,Loving you was the secrete I wanted to keepand buried deep inside my emotional heap,Doing everything possible what I had toBut baby it hurts as it hurts you too,but yeah still I am in love with you,Pulled myself million times because I got the wrong vibes all the time,But the truth remains the samebaby hear me as I am in love with you,Waiting on you I could see people were laughing on meI knew all the while you weren't near me.But you should know that I am in love with youThere were some days I missed you a lot and scared to tell you how i feel cold and hotfor you as I am in love with you is the only dreamAnd then I am in love with youI remember I have cried to sleepand bagged myself to keep you awayfrom the highest steepthe voice that said from within me I am in love with youJust I LOVE YOU was the only words I wanna hear from youeven while knowing, you don’t mean toBecause simply I feel the way I wanted toLoving to say I am in love with you.wake up in the morning with only you in my mind till I sleep at deep way in the nightI know its all silly things for your kindbut its perfect to me as clearly - deeply in love with youWhen you being nice to me that scares me sometimesbut bottom in my heart it feels so nice because during that timeI am in love with you,Doesn't matter whatever I do with you even things i have never done beforeand i enjoyed them all because simply as I am in love with you.In the first waiting on you was the favorite thing in my dayweather it s a call or just a look from you from the farthest bayI asked myself why and the voice within me said that I am in love with you.
A kind of northing is what I wish to accomplish, a single-minded trek towards that place where any shutter left open to the zenith at night will record the wheeling of all the sky’s stars as a pattern of perfect, concentric circles. I seek a reduction, a shedding, a sloughing off.tAt the seashore you often see a shell, or fragment of a shell, that sharp sands and surf have thinned to a wisp. There is no way you can tell what kind of shell it had been, what creature it had housed; it could have been a whelk or a scallop, a cowrie, limpet, or conch. The animal is long since dissolved, and its blood spread and thinned in the general sea. All you hold in your hand is a cool shred of shell, an inch long, pared so thin that it passes a faint pink light. It is an essence, a smooth condensation of the air, a curve. I long for the North where unimpeded winds would hone me to such a pure slip of bone. But I’ll not go northing this year. I’ll stalk that floating pole and frigid air by waiting here. I wait on bridges; I wait, struck, on forest paths and meadow’s fringes, hilltops and banksides, day in and day out, and I receive a southing as a gift. The North washes down the mountains like a waterfall, like a tidal wave, and pours across the valley; it comes to me. It sweetens the persimmons and numbs the last of the crickets and hornets; it fans the flames of the forest maples, bows the meadow’s seeded grasses and pokes it chilling fingers under the leaf litter, thrusting the springtails and the earthworms deeper into the earth. The sun heaves to the south by day, and at night wild Orion emerges looming like the Specter over Dead Man Mountain. Something is already here, and more is coming.
Once on a yellow piece of paper with green linesthe wrote a poemAnd he called it "Chops"tbecause that was the name of his dogAnd that's what it was all aboutAnd his teacher gave him an Atand a gold starAnd his mother hung it on the kitchen doortand read it to his auntsThat was the year Father Tracyttook all the kids to the zooAnd he let them sing on the busAnd his little sister was borntwith tiny toenails and no hairAnd his mother and father kissed a lotAnd the girl around the corner sent him aValentine signed with a row of X'stand he had to ask his father what the X's meantAnd his father always tucked him in bed at nightAnd was always there to do itOnce on a piece of white paper with blue linesthe wrote a poemAnd he called it "Autumn"tbecause that was the name of the seasonAnd that's what it was all aboutAnd his teacher gave him an Atand asked him to write more clearlyAnd his mother never hung it on the kitchen doortbecause of its new paintAnd the kids told himtthat Father Tracy smoked cigarsAnd left butts on the pewsAnd sometimes they would burn holesThat was the year his sister got glassestwith thick lenses and black framesAnd the girl around the corner laughedtwhen he asked her to go see Santa ClausAnd the kids told him whythis mother and father kissed a lotAnd his father never tucked him in bed at nightAnd his father got madtwhen he cried for him to do it.Once on a paper torn from his notebookthe wrote a poemAnd he called it "Innocence: A Question"tbecause that was the question about his girlAnd that's what it was all aboutAnd his professor gave him an Atand a strange steady lookAnd his mother never hung it on the kitchen doortbecause he never showed herThat was the year that Father Tracy diedAnd he forgot how the endtof the Apostle's Creed wentAnd he caught his sistertmaking out on the back porchAnd his mother and father never kissedtor even talkedAnd the girl around the cornertwore too much makeupThat made him cough when he kissed hertbut he kissed her anywaytbecause that was the thing to doAnd at three a.m. he tucked himself into bedthis father snoring soundlyThat's why on the back of a brown paper bagthe tried another poemAnd he called it "Absolutely Nothing"Because that's what it was really all aboutAnd he gave himself an Atand a slash on each damned wristAnd he hung it on the bathroom doortbecause this time he didn't thinkthe could reach the kitchen.